"My grandma died this year and it was really hard since I hadn't seen her in over a year."
--Michaella, 13
"My best friend Lexi her dad is dieing of cancer it can not spread any more because it has no where to go he could die any minute I feel so bad for her she has a 6 year old sister who was so attached to her dad and still is. There is no way at all the doctors can help."
--Lexi, 9
"My great grandfather died when I was 6 he had never been sick in his life he died from breaking his hip. For a week he could not eat or drink. He was 102 when he died. Sometimes when I think about him I remember his smile he loved kids and he never talked since turned 90. If he just did not climb that rock he would not have died. Sometimes I think it did not happen but then I realize it did. Rest In Peace Rex Robey."
--Lexi, 9
"My goldfish, jerry died on may 2002."
--Isabella
"Three of my rabbits died but the one I loved most was orchid she died two days after I got her she looked like a wild rabbit. Then I got depressed and thought it was me not feeding it enough. And we did not take it to the vet I don't know why she died."
--Lexi, 9
"My 2 grandpas both are close to dieing one did the other one has diabetes!"
--Wayne, 10
"My cat has been missing for about a week I was sooooo sad but then I found her dead. She got ran over by a car. I am crying right now."
--Hannah, 12
"I have experienced a death in my family. It was my great-grandmother. It happened like 5 months ago. We were so close. But the things I remember most about her is that she always LOVED to wear jewelry and dress up all fancy. She was a great woman and I really miss her a lot. I wish she could still be here today to watch me grow up even more..."
--Alyssa, 11
"I lost My Mother's Aunt Last Summer."
--Emma, 12
"Ok on July 807 my mixed German shepherd puppy died. My puppy started chasing this man on his bike then all of the sudden a stupid white car comes and runs over her I thought something exploded in my heart it was really painful I really loved her but now I have a mixed chocolate lab. But every night I think of her and then I start crying because I miss the good times we used to have WAT CAN I DO I'M SO SAD!"
--Wendy, 11
"My great aunt died she was so nice she gave me lollipops every time I visited."
--Someone
"I'm sitting alone, I don't know what to do.
The one thing I know is I really miss you.
You'd read me a book, while I'd sit on your lap.
What ever was wrong you could fix in a snap.
I know you are in a much happier place.
But what I want right now is to just see your face.
For you to be with me through good and through bad.
If you could be here I would feel oh so glad.
I know that can't happen, you're gone now for good.
But I just keep praying wishing you could.
You were part of my family and someone who cared.
With out you right close I sometimes feel scared.
I know that you're watching and reading this too.
So I just want to say that I really love you."
--Sage, 13
"My hamster, Tony died on April 1108. When I think about all the things we never got to do I get sad."
--Kevin, 10
"My older brother Hayden died of an electric shock. I was only like 4. I remember how he and Levi (his twin brother) always used to swap clothes and hats to mix people up. RIP."
--Caleb, 13
"My grandpa passed away in 1999. It was especially tough for my father because me and my sister were just born a year before my grandpa died. He died of a stroke. He smoked a lot. Although he had already had a near death experience before me and my sister were born, from which scared my family a lot, they never thought he would die of a stroke. I remember very little about grandpa, but here's what I do remember: he would always feed me and my sister ice cream before dinner and he was always so sweet and caring. I miss my grandpa and my family does to..."
--Casey, 9
"My mom died when my little sister Addie was born 7 years ago my mom was very very underweight for someone so pregnant and she lost too much blood it really hurt I didn't talk at all for 6 months if I could have anything in the world it would be my mommy."
--Zoe, 12
"Hi my great-grandma died when I was born. I've always wonder about her life."
--Jessica, 11
"My kindergarten teacher died when I was in 4 grade. Everyone would make fun of her because she was a little over - well fat. I always hated when they talked about her like that. ’Äòcause I knew that one day something bad might happen to her and I was right. When we found out it was 10. At her funeral I saw my friend and sat with her. She was really helpful she told me to just think of the good times. I cried my eyes out. If u think it's weird for me to cry hysterically. All the 8 graders cried including my brother. We did a lot of activities in school like writing down a memories of her. Now I don't cry as much but I still pray for her and cry about it."
--Alexa, 9
"I'm still in shock that my brother was in car crash this morning right now they say his condition is stable but his girlfriend and best friend are not doing so well they are both expected to survive though."
--Zoe, 12
"When me and my two brothers were 6 (we're triplets) one of them, Lyle, got hit by a car when we were playing in our driveway (he ran into the street to get our ball) and he ended up dying after a few hours in the hospital (and I and Kyan attacked the doctor who had told us he was dead). I think the thing I remember most about him is that he was really outspoken and would never let anyone get away with insulting us, or our other siblings."
--Axel, 8
"When I was about 2 or 3 my grandpa died and at the age of 9 I'm still dealing with it. I think about him a lot but to much pressure is being put on me in school and when I'm at home. The pressure is making me cry and think about sad things."
--Brandi, 9
"Yes. I've experienced two that I remember. One was my classmate, Lexi. She was so funny and loved ballet. Another was my grandpa. I loved his jokes..."
--Rebekkah, 11
"My teacher died in September in 2007 and when I got to the school I didn't know and my friend came and told me and I was like "No way. You're joking." and when I got in the school everyone was crying and it was so sad. We even had counselors there and everything it was so horrible."
--Brittany, 12
"My great grandpa died and it is really hard ion me ’Äòcuz I never told him by yet but I pray to him every night and talk to him well I talk to him but I can't hear what he tells me back lol but yeah."
--Anonymous
"My Uncle Crisey died."
--AnnOlivia
"My grandma died. I stayed home from school for about three days and I didn't want to do anything or eat. I didn't talk to anyone. I just wanted to stay in my room and cry."
--Juliana, 10
"My papa died when I was 4 years old. I cry about it now more than ever. It is sad. I nearly cried in school ’Äòcuz of that. I don't know if that is natural. But I know I have to be strong for me and my nanny. I remember when he fixed me pb&j all the time and when I sat in his lap...I am crying ’Äòcuz it hurts!"
--Danielle, 10
"I think that it's very sad if someone dies because every time you think of them you might cry and you don't get to spend time with them anymore."
--Tenielle, 13
"It's pretty hard some months ago my aunt died and well it's like I feel she's still here but when I look for her is when I realize she's gone I hate it that she left but I know she's in a better place now I mostly remember her smile how she always had a smile on her face."
--Aide, 11
"My best friend died after we went to Mexico for vacation over the summer we went swimming and she fell off rock hit her head on a rock and drowned I went to her funeral. I still miss her after 2 years! IN LOVING MEMORY OF JESSICA PEREZ."
--Wendy, 13
"My grandma died of a heart attack. My great grandma who was close to me died of a stroke. My dog died just a few weeks ago: (."
--Mia <3, 13
"Yes my grandpa, it was SAD!"
--Adam, 10
"MY DOGGYYYYYYY DIED! I'm sad. Her/his/his 93 dogs died0 first bud I never existed then Sandy then Toby I got Bandit n Jake now DA WIL NEVR DIE! FIREEMBLEM4EVER. GO MARTH! 1! 11! 11! 1!"
--Jason, 10
"I lost my grandfather last year and it REALLY hurt. Sometimes when I think strait. I lost him when I was in 1st grade. And I was always thinking about him, so when we did math tests they had to take me out of the room. They also had to give me more time than the other kids had."
--Megan
"Losing a friend that I myself grew up with was hard just to look at his picture makes me think of all the things we used to do. It's was hard just to find out about his death. It still crushes me to this day just to think about it."
--Anonymous
"I'm afraid my mom will die because she has breast cancer for about 2 years already. How can I feel better without telling my mom?"
--Alondra, 12
"I have experienced an awful Death. My Mom Died. See here's what happened. : She had not been felling very well for like a month. She hated going to the doctors so wouldn't go. Finally, after 2 months, my Dad dragged her into the car. I got dropped off at my friend's house, down the street. She was angry and didn't look at me or my dad as I said Good Bye. She went to the hospital. She was put in the ICU for very bad liver problems. She called the house one day and begged and pleaded for my dad to bring me to her. He didn't want me to see her like that so he said no. A few days later, I woke up and my dad and Godmother were sitting on the couch crying. Then the tears struck. It was the worst moment in my life."
--Brooke, 11
"YES, but it is not very good to remember!"
--Carly, 10
"My great grandma died."
--Brynn, 12
"My great grandfather died just a 1 month before our family reunion. I don't feel a lot of pain though because I got to speak with him the day before he died. It was a very special moment and I will never forget what a wonderful Great Grandfather he was. :)."
--Amethyst, 11
"Yes. My grandpa died two months ago. He died on New Years. I cried and cried I didn't want feel like talking or eating or anything. He was so nice and fun. I loved him so much, he was my hero..."
--Abbey, 12
"I've had to deal with two deaths in my family my dad and my gpa and it was very heartbreaking but I got a lot of attention over the years of having to deal with such tragic!"
--DaNesha
"I lost my grandma a little over a year ago. I never really knew her b/c she was sick for 2 years! I really only saw here when I went up to Indiana and I saw her lay on her couch the whole time! : ( even though I really don't remember her NOT being sick she still means the world to me! :) (I love you grandma! )."
--Sydney, 12
"My great aunt died of cancer. I told Laura, Makayla, Mary, and my LA teacher."
--Melinda, 12
"I dealt with my brother's death."
--Arneva
"My best friend Cassidy died when I was in the first grade. She got in a bad car accident. I cried a lot after that because I never even got to say goodbye to her. I miss her so much!"
--Ally, 10
"I know I have already said that I lost all of my family members in hurricane Katrina, and I live in a orphan shelter, but I just want to tell you know matter if people die in your family they will always be there for you and looking after you. That is what really matters."
--Victoria, 10
"In November of 2007 we lost our grandma Webb so on November 8th me mom and lance went to the funeral I saw four people there my uncle Brian my cousin Rachel my uncle Dave and my dad so that made feel sad that that my grandma Webb died before lance's 16 birthday."
--SHAYLANE W
"When I was just 7 years old my grandma died. I felt like, "How will I survive without her?" I cried for about 3 years whenever I thought about but then just recently I realized even she's passed on it doesn't mean she's gone forever because she'll always be in my heart."
--Isabel, 10
"I never meet my grandparents because they died."
--Beatrice, 9
"My mom died."
--Anna, 13
"One day, my great grandma died in 2004, and Maggie and I were at our Grandma and Papa's house. And now, (sniff) I miss her soooo much."
--Camryn, 8
"My aunt died of cancer. It was so sad. I still cry about it sometimes. I was pretty close to her. It broke everyone in my families heart."
--Gianna, 10
"This is for every kid who said "Keep the chain of angels going" ^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^ Sorry for every kid's loss. Keep the chain going."
--Gianna, 10
"My Grandpa passed away over 3 years ago. It was really hard because I loved him very much, but I am not sad anymore because his death as influenced my art."
--Michael
"Hey it's Erin, this isn't about death, but Thursday (4-10-08) a guy named Jovian got beat up and put in the hospital. He's o. K., but I'm scared that he might not make it. Can sum1 help me. Love ya Jovian."
--Joseph
"Yes I had to deal with death 1 time. Both of my uncles died. What I did was to think about the happy moments I spend with them."
--Shamaria, 10
"I have had a lot of deaths eventually I learned that when you lose someone just know that they are in a better place. :) and also that doesn't mean you don't cry, you can cry, here is a fact. The reason that girls live longer than boys is because something about crying, boys just tough it up and don't cry, but girls will weep all day, something about it helps I studied it. :) good luck boys!"
--Annalyse, Dogluver, 11
"Quite recently I lost a friend, who committed suicide. I have lost many people in my life but this time I feel I could have prevented by being there for him. It just haunts me everyday. What should I do?"
--Jazz
"Um well I do not know what it is like to have someone be taken away from you well my great grandma was but I did not even meet her so...What's it like and how do you feel?"
--Keonna, 10
"Well, this sounds weird but I first got this guinea pig but it was I think born with this lung problem and I didn't know that. I only kept it for like 2 months but then it got really sick. I cried my eyes out. I don't know why. Hah, it was weird but maybe it was the first death I ever encountered because there was a one in a million chance he was gonna live so that means he was gonna die, I just haven't felt any pain like that before. Yeah, he died it was really sad for me."
--Megan, 12
"I really miss my mom I lost her I'm 10 and she was 28 my heart still aches with sadness."
--Anonymous
"My Aunt Yvette died. I remember most is she was on TV and whenever came home we had fun with my uncle also and I miss my aunt."
--Mary
"I've experienced the loss of 4 very important person (1) my great grandmother 2 (my grandfather (in both sides) 3and my godfather. I met my great grand mother before she died. My godfather died by cancer. I did not meet my 2 grandfathers in both side they died before I was born they died. ’Äòcause both of them are alcoholic."
--Paula, 10
"My dad."
--Gabi, 10
"Hi my nan died 8 weeks ago ever sins the funeral I have been sleeping with the light and I been so angry all the time."
--Sammy
"Sadly, yes. My best friend back in NY. She died of a car accident. She was only 8, and she was my best friend ever. I'm OK now, but when I was 8 I was a wreck..."
--Leigh, 12
"Hey I'm here 2 talk 2 a person named Judah he is very rude in his entry his said 'tml is mean letting people show their feelings." First of all it's better to tell your feelings than 2 keep them inside you. Judah you need to learn manners and be nice you no it's the truth!"
--Monkey gals, 10
"The day my mom died was a terrible day it was the day I was going to finally go to middle schools the d ay my mom died I was hit with grief my bro acted like he did not care but I knew he was suppressing it. Soon two months later I healed a little bit but I do not think my bro healed so together I always plant something that my mother loved-cherry blossoms I grew them and they were the only the that remind me of my mom I have healed but I still wonder of my brother....."
--Sonia, 12
"I have asthma it is hard to breathe when I am sick."
--Anonymous
"Yeah my grandmas death and my friends dads death..."
--Hails, 11
"My Grandma died very SaD!"
--Maddie
"My Cat Sogwa Died I Was So Sad I Was Asleep And My Momma And My Brother Found Her She Was The Best Cat EVER!"
--Destiny Lee, 10
"Yes."
--Ariana, 9
"My mom died 7/20/07."
--Gina
"Last year, my minister dies of cancer. At first, he was feeling fine. He ate a lot of cough drops because he coughs a lot. But then, months passed. He got worse and worse every time I saw him. And the last time I saw him, he was in a hospital bed. He was eating his lunch and he was talking to the church members at my church. But one day, when my dad picked me up from school, he told me what happened. My sister started crying, but I wasn't. I knew how to handle a death like this. Now, every time I think about him, I remember the good times we had at church and a church picnics."
--Uwa, 10
"I had my three great-aunts and a cousin die of cancer omg what am I gonna do?"
--Anonymous
"He was Bill."
--Ciera
"Yes. I still can't talk about it."
--Ana
"Well, I have never really experienced any death only one person I did not know very well but my poppy died before I was even born! It was poppy Hamlyn and I pray for him every night. I wish I knew him because I have a feeling he would have been really nice."
--Taryn, 9
"The death I experienced was when I was ten. My grandma didn't tell the doctor when she had signs of breast cancer. By the time we found out it had already spread throughout her whole body. The night before she died, my dad told me to pray for her to get better, but the next morning she passed away. The thing I remember the most is her beautiful smile and the strength she had to keep her head up through the good times and the bad."
--Whitney
"I deal with death my whole family now I live on the streets will nothing no money food shelter nobody to protect me I got to send this email because I borrowed it from a person walking on the streets so please help me I still cry about it some times I lost them because of hurricane Katrina."
--Victoria, 10
"Another one of my experiences with death is when my step mother died after my real whole family died my step mother had a baby in her stomach and it died to because my step-mom died."
--Victoria, 10
"I'm still dealing with it I lost my uncle a week b4 my birthday then I lost my grandpa a month later it stinks I'm miss them soo bad I mean sooooooooooo bad :)" (."
--Jessie
"My grandpa died when my mom was still about to give birth to me. He died March 4th 1997. My dad was so sad."
--Renee, 9
"I have experienced death. My father died when I was seven months. I was in the hospital for about my first year because I was born three months early. I was fighting for my life. My father was cheating on my mother with my sister's mother in Jamaica. He died when I was seven months on a Jamaican highway. I have grown up knowing my brother's loving father. He has been so caring but, there was a part of me that wanted to know more about MY father. I had seen pictures of him and occasionally asked my mother about him. One faithful night that all changed. I was in my basement watching Grey's Anatomy. It was a very sad episode filled with death and pain. That got me thinking. Where is my dad? Could he ever come back? Why can't he be alive? I wanted to know. I went to my room struggling to hold back the tears. I went on my computer and came onto this very website about death as tears flowed. My mother walked in and asked me what was wrong. My stepfather was in the room when I said I missed my father. He almost walked out. My mother told me he would never come back. I can't wish he was here. I have to accept his death and move on. He was gone until I met him in heaven, if he was in heaven. My heart ached as I look back and realize that was one of the worst nights of my life. I want to know him. I want to really know him. He died at 32. I was so young and in the hospital that I couldn't go to his funeral. I miss my dad. I wish I knew him but, I know he's gone and however unfair I think that is sometimes. It's true. I miss you Prince ( He's not the singer! People always think that! ) May you rest in piece with GOD!"
--Ryant, 13
"Well, I feel bad for all of the kids and people who had experienced someone die:) ( I had a dog, who I loved A LOT! She died! I think she died from eating a stick and it punctured her throat:) ( I cried for a while I was in kindergarten and I used to play a lot of games with her. I played tag and she chased me around! I don't get sad that much anymore because it has been six years. She was a black lab. When my babysitter was over I played with both of them at the same time! I had so much fun with that dog. It was my grandmother's dog. She buried her ashes and over the ashes and it said "If tears led a stairway to heaven. I would walk right up to you" that is at least what I think it said."
--Jlh, 11
"A few days ago...Grandpa died, mom was crying so much, now I am slightly sad."
--Laura F, 9
"Hi, it's me again if you are having problems with death try to talk to your parents and ask why they had to die if you don't want to do that then you can just say, Mom Dad when - died why did God let her/him"."
--Victoria, 10
"This person WAS dying, but he didn't. My grandpop was dying of cancer of EVERYTHING. I couldn't sleep, I starved myself 6 pounds. But when he didn't die, I started eating again and got to sleep."
--Lauren, 10
"In October05 (in Ramadan), my grandmother was sick and my parents took her to the hospital. So my neighbor took care of us, and I told myself that everything's gonna be alright. But the next day, everything was weird. I had never experienced anything like this. But at my cousin's, I got to have one last look. But I remind myself that she will, InshaAllah, be amongst the righteous. My brother remembers her A LOT! It was her time to go to the grave."
--Sohaib, 11
"Person didn't die but my dog got ran over if that counts as anything."
--Faith, 11
"My great-grandma just recently passed away [I hate the word die! ]ill tell you the story from the start. My mom was going to see my great-grandma[she lives in CA and the rest of us in IN] I begged my mom to take me with she said next time, well there was no next time! =[. When I went to her funeral it was first time I actually saw the person in the casket. She looked calm and I knew she had given up the fight. I cried, that is after the denial stage ended. My mom touched my great-grandmas hand I wish I had. I could not watch them lower her into the ground, how could they bury her. It rained, sleeted, and hailed, the world cried with me. If you used my story thanks if you read it thanks."
--Izzy bee, 10
"My sister Amberlyn Rose S has died on December 20 of 2005 she died 5 days before my dad's birthday she will turn three this coming December."
--Baylee, 8
"I've dealt with death! Right on New Year's Eve, my mom was with her friend, Kristy, my moms other friend, Janet (her sons are cool. ) had called. Her dog Maggie died. And her dog Berkley died before."
--ErinPower, 8
"Dealing with death is a really hard thing my grandma had passed away when I was a baby my moms mom and it was really sad she would do anything for you dress up like a clown by you stuff anything, you name it. It was really sad when I found out but we still have her with us in our hearts."
--Samantha m, 11
"If I was a super hero I would call my self power rangers and my powers would be invisible and guns and weapons and punches and kicks."
--Marcos
"I have experienced the death of 3 people. My cousin, my grandmother, and my grandfather. The one I loved the most was my cousin, Carl. He died from a gunshot. What I remember is he played with me when I was a baby. He always put up the peace sign. But I will see him again."
--Amanda, 10
"It was so long ago but when my best friend Branson died I was heartbroken. On October 2 2004 he was with his grandparents driving around when a drunk driver slammed into their car the grandparents survived but Branson didn't. That night I had dream after dream about him until I woke up screaming his name. The worst part is he just got out of kindergarten. He was my best friend."
--Amber, 10
"Dealing with death is hard. Some people for instance me don't get to EVER see their Grandparents- Or other family members but if they were alive there's a good chance you wouldn't be alive now. So it's okay to cry trust me."
--Kaya
"My nana died. I'm lonely."
--Anonymous
"My uncles death I cried."
--Anonymous
"I had a pet die and she was like a best friend to me. She never bit me."
--Josie, 8
"I know how you feel, I've lost a grandfather and a grandmother (who I never met. ) : (."
--Sparkle
"I have experienced the loss of my family. A year before my mom gave birth to me, my maternal grandmother died. Whenever we visit her grave, it makes me sad to see my mom cry and to think how I was so close to seeing a grandparent..."
--Hanna, 9
"I just lost my best friend Abbey (my pet dog) a couple of weeks ago. I really miss her but I always remember two things. She isn't in pain anymore and no amount of tears will bring her back. Besides, while she was alive, we had a lot of fun, but I never realized how much I loved her until she was gone. You see, the morning my parents put her to sleep I gave her a huge piece of toast. That was the last time I ever saw her alive. While I was at school, she fell and could not get up. My parents took her and put her down. Then they called the school and told my teacher to tell me I was getting a ride home. I got a feeling in the pit of my stomach and knew something was wrong. When I got to the car, they told me. I was a wreck. But I'm better now and have her ashes in my room. She will always have a special place in my heart, and I know my parents and other dog, Milo, miss her just as much as I do."
--Ashley, 13
"My betta fish died. I was really attached to him. I thought he was going to live for a long time but he got sick and died about five months after I bought him : (. He was one of my best friends and I'll never forget him. I don't think I'll ever get over it. Oh, and Pat, I'm really sorry about your mom. Try gathering up things that remind you of her and putting them in a box or a bag. Open it whenever you want to be reminded of her. That's what I did after my fish died."
--Kate, 11
"My crush Andy, said today that his grandmother died of cancer. I feel bad for you bro, I really really do..."
--Camille, 11
"My great grandpa died and I was really close too him."
--Samantha, 9
"My dads mother died last year. His only parent. I still cry sometimes. WHY?"
--Kendra, 12
"My grandfather died when I was two. And I don't want to lose my grandmother too even thought I have to at one point. She kept telling me : "There are two paths in life and death is one that we must all take." Whenever she says that it makes me start imagining about how she might die. Then I burst into tears. What should I do."
--Dakota, 9
"On my first day of kindergarten, my cat, Kitten (lol) died while I was there. I still cry about it sometimes. Then my friends make fun at me and say, "It's just a dumb cat. You'll get over it." but when I try to, I just start crying again. I'll never forget her..."
--Mary, 10
"My family's first pet ever died on Good Friday, the day Jesus died. His name was Scaley, and I had got him at a fair in 2006. I will bury him in our yard next to his best friend, who also died, Spotty."
--MrsNorris
"I had an aunt that meant the world to me but she passed before her birthday and my grand pa passed away a few days ago. : - (."
--Jadah
"My mom died 3 weeks ago. And I am very very sad."
--Yoyo
"When I was 8, both my mom and my dad died. Now I live with my grandma and grandpa and my little brother who is 6. I still miss my parents."
--Katharine, 11
"About 4 years ago my mom died because she had a very serious disease that I can't remember. I was only 6. I miss her soooo much! : (."
--Rebecca, 10
"All my grandmas and grampas died.....And I don't even no how they look like! My dad said my granma (Esther) had been a great mom for all six of her children. She died because a bus ran over her. I hope the guy that killed my grandma died. I know I am not supposed to say that but he was never considered guilty. I feel like crying......."
--Katherine, 9
"I have experienced the death of my Grammy. The thing I remember most about her is, is that she used to always give me a plate of Oreo cookies and a glass of milk..."
--Willow, 13
"I only have one grandparent living and it's my mom's mom. My grandpa died in my house, and my step nephew, too."
--Jesus, 9
"I had a borrowed brother who died of depression a borrowed brother is a brother you borrowed from somebody."
--Manuel, 11
"My Great-Grandma. When I was in kindergarten my dad picked me up from school and said that she had died. I thought he was joking when he was not. The funeral was proof. I had to stay with my mom's friend. Before she died I hugged her good-bye from the hospital and thought I would always remember it until she died."
--Zoey, 8
"When someone dies I cry for hours then get on the computer and forget about it."
--Mira
"My grannu had a dog and it was a staffie and it was really only still a pup when we found out it had cancer because my granny found a lump on its neck and took it straight to the vet. He gave my us a choice of whether we wanted to give her chemotherapy or just tablets the tablets would keep her alive for 6 months or the chemo would have 8 months but my granny and grandma couldn't pay so much money but what they paid she was still going to die so they did the tablets and she stayed alive for a little bit more than 6 months I went to stay in my granny and grandpa's house when she was still alive I was so upset I had to come home 'cause I couldn't look at her I cried that night for about 5 hours then I remember coming home from school and my mum told me that she had to get put down I wasn't so sad at the start because it hadn't sunk in yet then I cried and cried 'cause everyone in my family are animals lovers and now sitting here typing this I am still crying and it was about 3 or 4 months ago but it was only before Christmas which made it worse and she was such a beautiful wee dog I loved her so much."
--Laura, 13
"The day mother died and I was scared."
--David, 10
"My dad died on January 28/08 it was really sad. He had a kind of cancer that I can't pronounce but I'm an only child with a dog and a mom so I don't know if any of you believe in God or trust God but I do and my Dads with him now."
--Anonymous
"Yes my brother died. He was born in 2002 and he died well in02 he was born in February 2. On my mom's b-day. My things that I remember most about Johnrobert (my brother) is that he could walk before he died. I still remember his funeral my dad was crying I never say him cry like that, well I never seen him cry..."
--Breeana, 10
"My grandma's friend, Patsy died when she was supposed to come over her house."
--Alivia, 9
"I have experienced the death of my grandpa. I was really close to him as if he was my dad. I miss you, Abuelito Enrique!"
--Mayra, 12
"Well My Grandma Died The only thing I can remember her by is her songs she sang to me."
--Mackenzie, 8
"2 years ago my dog died and I cried for days. I still cry sometimes not only on the outside. On the inside too. I miss her so much I remember when I would try to play with her."
--Amanda, 11
"My dad. I was 8 when he passed away. I remember that he loved me."
--Alicia
"Yeah...: - (."
--Laura, 13
"I am still trying to deal with the death of my loving wonderful Mother. What can I do to not feel sooooo terribly sad?"
--Pat
"I had grandmom and granddad who died and I never got to see them."
--Syeda
"My mom's grandma died and my mom is so sad."
--Syeda
"I once love my dad before he died."
--Steven, 12
"Hi my name is Asha. My aunt died a few years ago and I'm really sad when she died. By Asha N. Love Aunt really much and I love the world."
--Asha, 11
"Yes I have and it was very painful to hear of such thing."
--Jocelyn, 10
"I'm a girl and I have a mom that died 1 month ago. It's very devastating and depressing."
--Chris
"My grandfather died when I was two. And I don't want to lose my grandmother too even thought I have to at one point. She kept telling me : "There are two paths in life and death is one that we must all take." Whenever she says that it makes me start imagining about how she might die. Then I burst into tears. What should I do?"
--Aneeqah, 10
"Well, my two cats died when I was small. 'j'j'j'j'."
--Nancy drew, 11
"Well I never met one of my grandfathers. But my other grandfather died when I was in 3rd grade...So that was when I was...8 or 9. I was upset but I realized that everyone else was sad and some were more close to him...And I ended up feeling glad that I met him and had those times with him that I at least have as memories! Don't feel down : ( be happy :)."
--Mandee, 13
"When my yaya died I cried for days when she died of breast cancer and all I remember about her is that she had a little bit of hair I was about 3 years old when she died. I really miss her."
--Mary-Anne, 10
"Hi my name is Sarah my aunt died back in 2004 and I didn't get to say goodbye. My mom and my dad were there when she died and I miss her a lot."
--Sarah, 11
"My grammpa died from a lung disease! I was sleeping over at my friend's house when it happened! [sniff, sniff]."
--Ryann, 9
"My dad found a baby bird who was just hatched a couple of days ago and it had no feathers and it looks like a bug. So, he brought it home and we don't think it's gonna make it..."
--Morgan, 11
"My friends mother died suddenly, it was strange because first she was really healthy and the next day she had to go to the hospital. Sometimes I get scared and hope my mother and father die soon."
--Alana, 10
"Yes........Both grandpas."
--Emma, 10
"Yes. It was my mom's dad, and he was soo nice. He liked ice cream very much. He died of lung cancer, and the last thing he ate was vanilla ice cream. LOL. But he was the best grandpa ever and I feel really bad about this. I eventually got over it, but like 2 months after this I think I got depressed. I was soo sad, but I learned life goes on. And you have to deal w/ it..."
--Anonymous
"Hi my name is Maggie I had a grandpa and he died when I was 1 years old he never got to see me grow up."
--Maggie, 8
"I never had someone die that was close to me but the best way to think of it as them going on to a better place and that God will be taking great care of them."
--Alyssa, 8
"My mom died! She was very dear to me! She had breast cancer. I cried for MONTHS!"
--Mary, 12
"No I have not, but I have some tips: Always remember that god is taking good care of him or her, If you are feeling really sad, talk to a parent about it, and remember, that person is always watching you from heaven!"
--Sarah
"My dad died yesterday. So sad."
--Paul
"I had a friend and this stranger took her and I missed her soo much what I like about her is she was soo nice and she always was there 4 me."
--Taylor, 12
"It all started when my mom died me and my sisters where crying her face looked like glass only her hair felt the same I could not stand looking I missed her a lot I will never forget when she tickled my little toes I have a question what would you do if you lost someone you cared about?"
--Audrey, 10
"Hi my names Jessica and I guess you're probably reading this because you have something that's bugging you or depressing you well all I want to say is that no ones perfect. One day I came home and I was getting yelled at like crazy so I just stood in my room all day without eating without anything I told myself everything was going to be ok but inside I knew it wasn't! I don't know I guess I was just crazy I told myself I was so depressed and I wanted to do something my friend had done this before so I thought it would be fine so I hurt myself It was probably one of the worst things I have ever done. I regret this so much I do! I wish I could take this back because it's so addicting I promised so many of my friends that I would never do it again and I failed! Your probably thinking wow she's stupid and yes I am please don't make the mistake that I did don't do it you have a long ways to go don't ruin it: ]] it's a horrible feeling waking up every morning feeling like you haven't done it and it was all a dream but then you look at your wrist and you realize it wasn't don't do it, do you honestly think it's going to help you with it's not your just hurting yourself."
--Jessica
"I never had death experience in my life but I would feel more than sad if any thing happened to same one I love and care for. I pray and hope nothing like this ever happens to me."
--Ayan
"My great grandma died how do I get rid of the sadness?"
--Anonymous
"I wonder if any of you ever read one of the Chicken Soup for the Soul series. I've never experienced any deaths of anyone I know, but after reading the Preteen Soul, I figured that a lot of kids out there have some brilliant ideas on dealing with some of the toughest problems around. Here's one: When really sad, think of people who've experienced worse. Believe it or not, that really works! At least, if you put your mind to it..."
--StarGazer, 10
"My aunt died of breast cancer and like Kayla, 11, it hurt me BAD. I cried for WEEKS! My aunt was really close to me because my mom and my dad split up when I was young and my aunt was like a mom to me. But then I realized that God probably needed her badly, and I can't undo stuff that's already done. So next time your feeling down and upset, remember this: That person that died is always in your heart and He or she is always looking down at you. <3"."
--Sally, 12
"In May of 2004 my Grandfather died. He died 3 days after my birthday. I hate him for leaving me. I graduate next year and what hurts the most is that he won't be there to see me being handed my diploma and then shake our principals hand and he won't get to celebrate with us after at dinner. I feel like it is my fault that he is dead. The last thing I ever said to him was goodbye. My Mom and I were visiting them and then we packed up and left and I hugged him and said I love you Grandpa. He died a week later. I cry all the time still. I will always him no matter what."
--Kate
"When I was 3, I had experienced a great loss of my Grandma Connie who had the same b-day as me. Sometimes I still cry on my birthday. She died of lung cancer. My Mom and I still cry about it and it happened 6 years ago. I miss you grandma."
--Cheyenne, 9
"Well I lost my Daddy in 2007...Because of pneumonia it was a really hard time for me & it still is. I thought that I was going to die of depression, but I didn't. But now whenever I hear a noise and get scared my family says it's your daddy trying to communicate with you, and I believe them. But I know that he's always watching over me!"
--Kayla, 11
"In 1997, when Mario was born, my 1st grandmother died near a bus driver. I wish I was born in 1996! And now I think it is my fault! I am lamenting for Mrs. Ahn. Here is Mr. Ahn, a widower."
--Hannah, 9
"Hi my name is Damariea and I did have somebody in my that spend time with me one day and died the next day."
--Damariea, 13
"My dad died when I was 5. I don't remember him much, but I'm so mad everyone keeps talking about how he was and now I just don't know how to avoid the topic. He died of aids, and he gave my mom hepatitis, now I have to deal with my mom's problems. What do I do?!"
--Kim, 12
"My grandpa just passed away last month. I remember that he was nice to everyone. At his funeral they said the most important person in the world to him was the person standing in front of him."
--Abbey, 11
"In 2004 my dad died of an aneurism and it hurt me bad I thought it was my fault. Then in 2006 all 4 of my dogs died so let's just say that my life is bad. But when someone dies it's just God's way of saying that he needed a new angel or it was going to be better for someone else. Everybody loses someone they love and we all have 2 go through it sooner or later."
--Kayla, 11
"When I was about 5 my young uncle David died. I was little sad. I didn't know what that was. When I got older I Knew more. Now I really am sad about it."
--Sarah, 10
"I'm going to talk about my cats because although people have died in my life my cats where closer to me. One died in 2001 and the other one died in 2005. I have two cats know in my home and my gold fish died in 2008..."
--Claire, 11
"My great uncle died from a heart attack when I was 9. I remember he was always funny."
--Mary, 12
"No, not really, but I do know that it must be hard, in some cases, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY hard."
--Mary
"0o0o0o0o on super bowl Sunday when I was 6 my dad died becuz he had a heart attack...I'm afraid to pace (that's one of the last things he did b4 he died besides break his nose) =[ =[ =[ =[ =[ : - ( : ' (."
--Carrie, 11
"Last year my pet gerbil had a baby it wasn't a normal baby it was a special baby but it got sick. Me and my sister and brother did every thing we could we would stay up sometimes until one in the morning. One day I woke up I looked in the cage it had died in the night. I was so sad, we called it Max I miss him so much."
--Isaac M, 11
"My granduncle died on February 1708, and his funeral was yesterday February 2308."
--Isache, 12
"Annie, I might know you. Is your last name Davis? If so, write back ASAP. IML, please post this."
--Simone
"Well this is the only death experience I've had before. When I was only two years old my grampa died from cancer. It was really sad. It's going to be so fun to go to heaven because then I can see him again. My grandpa's name was gorge."
--Lucia
"Hi. I have experienced death, 2 times. It is vary sad."
--Krissygreenier, 11
"Yes, I have. A little girl named Mallory. She was my little sister's friend and went to my school and church. I remember how she loved life, and never got sad, even when she was in the hospital, horribly sick. She had to spend her eighth and last birthday in the hospital, waiting for new lungs. I miss her! It's so hard to cope with death, especially premature death."
--Sarah, 11
"I have experienced the death of someone that I seriously loved. The person that died in my loving life was my father Thomas Edward. He died from a heart attack at age 34. What I remember most about my dad is that if he was still alive today he and I would get along really well..."
--Willow, 13
"I had a dog named Girl. She got ran over. I remember her brother and twin Girlly. My aunt (Samantha10) and I (Rosalinna7) made a cemetery!"
--Rosalinna
"My grandma died when I was in year 6 and it took me ages to get over it which I still ant I fink about her everyday and night and there isn't a day that goes by where I wish she was hear and not up there but some how I know she's watching me and very proud of me : ' ( and I still shed a tear so here's a bit of my fave song that reminds me of her I miss you I miss ur smile and I still shed a tear every once in a while and even though it's different now ur still here somehow your still here somehow."
--Chelsiie
"I had to deal with the death of my grandma when I was in year 6 it touched me so much I still fink about her everyday && my fave songs makes me cry becuz it reminds me of her. I love you grandam. R. I. P. love you loads and I never will stop. Hope ur safe and sound up there all alone. Luv ur granddaughter Chelsiie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx."
--Chelsiie
"My heart has been smashed to pieces. And it's kind of my cat's fault...My cat tiger caught birds, rabbits, and more birds in the house. (Barley alive) I wanted to keep them alive by feeding them. They died. Tiger caught more birds and I kept them and fed them, they died. But yes I have lost some one. My great grandfather, : - (."
--Heather
"My baby sister died when I was just 5. I remember my sister coming out of my mom's hospital room and crying her eyes out and me not knowing why. (I was not old enough to understand. ) Then my step dad called me in to see the baby. She was so pretty. I FELT SO SAD when my mom told me calmly and said that things like that happen. I couldn't bring my self to thank why she would say that. Of course, I was only 5. That was 4 years. I still think about it today. It was horrible!"
--Lexielou hoo, 10
"I just celebrate on The Day of The Dead so its spirit can come."
--Hannah
"When my mouse died I was sad angry and upset. After the day my mouse died everyone just let go of it and didn't care about her anymore except me. The thing I remember most about my mouse Lucy was all the good times we had together. I really really miss her. Whenever I think of her I start crying. But not really...just my eyes water. She died in 2007. I never got to say goodbye."
--Anonymous
"Yes I have experienced 8 deaths throughout my life. All 8 funerals were my family and were very sad. I broke down and so did my other family members. It still haunts us till this day. My grandma passed away before I was born so that wasn't fair. The rest are too sad to explain..."
--Anonymous, 8
"I don't think it's right to put things about animals here. Why not in the pets section? Anyway, it's sad that people die, but it's happy that they get to go live with god! Did you know that every minute, 240 people enter earth and 100 leave it?"
--Katie, 10
"First I would help the poor by having a big food bank drive. There would be so much food that it would take them 100,000 years too eat them all, so they would share them with dogs and cats that are stray. At the end everyone would be healthy."
--Meikka, 9
"My papa's dog died in 2007. I cried when I heard it. I was sad."
--AnnaLisa, 12
"My dog named Daisy just died this summer. She was 1 years old and she got hit by a car. I still cry sometimes cause it's very sad."
--Anonymous
"About 8 or 9 years ago my uncle was murdered by a gang it was one of the worst things that had ever happened because I loved him like he was my father I MISS YOU UNCLE DANNY AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Also, I'm not sure when but a long time ago my great aunt Kathleen passed away because she had cancer so she had surgery to get it removed and it was to late it had already spread all over her body and they did not tell her about it so about 2 days after that she had passed away I never even met her and I was crying for about a week I did not eat, sleep, or anything, I was so depressed..."
--Kirsten, 12
"Last night my grandma died I'm am so sad she was one of my favorite grandmas."
--Selene, 9
"My family's friend Aimee (pronounced I-ahh-may) died because she felt that she wasn't needed in this world anymore, so she while she was driving, she just closed her eyes, and continued driving until she crashed...It was really sad, and we ALL miss Aimee...R. I. P Aimee, for your heart still lives inside of ours!"
--Leng-Pang, 12
"My older brother died at 24. I wish we were closer, but I didn't understand why he never really liked me until I got older and realized that he picked on me because he loved me very much. I regret saying awful things to him when we were younger, and now I live with this terrible guilt and sadness in my heart. I think about him in my dreams, yet I have no one that I can open to and be vulnerable. The only time I cried publicly was at his funeral. That hurt so much because the last time I saw him, I couldn't even ask him how he was doing. Now I go on, asking God for forgiveness and hoping that I can go on with a normal life without thinking about his death every day. I really need help getting over it. Problem is, everyone around me thinks I'm already over it. I can't even sleep alone at night without thinking that he's watching me. In my dreams, he keeps telling me that he forgives me, but I can't believe it. He was depressed, and I feel like I contributed to his depression. I'm so sad, and afraid that I may never truly get through this. I don't want to be 40 and still thinking about this in such a negative way."
--Anonymous
"My friends cat was old but expecting 5 kittens but died giving birth to them and 3 died being born. My friend misses Tippsy so much and both kittens were girls."
--Lupa
"My cousin died in 2006 she was drunk driving and got in a crash and I feel it was my fault because when I first saw her she was chewing gum and I thought in my mind she thinks she's all of that because of how she chewed it, when she died I felt so guilty, what should I do?"
--Kimaya, 10
"My neighbor died because she had cancer. I miss her..."
--Lindsay, 13
"TO JADE AGE 10- Shoot! What kind of friend would make you put your dog to sleep? It was wrong of her to be mean to him. Don't forgive her or her mother and write to the police and the girl's family saying that they owe your family an apology. I would sue!"
--Lindsay, 13
"God cant save everybody from death...They may b really sick n if the doctors have done all they can do He takes them 2 live w\ him in Heaven...It wouldn't b right 2 jus let these ppl stay on life support n suffer n 1 day when He comes 4 us we'll all have a good time ’Äòcuz the ppl who have died b4 us r waiting 2 c us! So next time u hear of somebody sick dying consider this."
--Dana
"When I was 10 years old, my grandma was really sick. She went to the hospital multiple times, but she was 81...We transferred her to a new home. There, she celebrated her 82 birthday. Then she went somewhere else. There it was very homey, but she broke her hip there. Then we brought her to a place called Hospice. We had lunch there almost every day. One day when we were getting lunch, my dad told me that Hospice is a place where people can die peacefully. When he told me that, I almost broke into tears. 16 days after her birthday (4 days after being there) I was at home watching T. V. Then my mom came into the house and told us that grandma died. I burst into tears. She was the most important person I looked up to...But then I was happy. I was happy because she did not have to be in pain anymore."
--Jennifer, 11
"Well when I was 5 my favorite cat Booie got ran over when I found out I was so upset but I got over it in about 2 or 3 weeks or so."
--Tazzmyn, 12
"This past Thursday night my great aunt Luvenia passed on she had a mild stroke then went into a coma my whole family is in extreme pain right now we will always love her!"
--Alex
"My Grandma died of cancer 4 or 5 yrs ago and it changed everything, she was the one I would go to for help and advice and when I found out she was gone I knew it would change everything, and it has...Now whenever I have something on my mind that I need to let out I cry for her because I would go to her...Now she's gone I don't see my grandad because he lives in hull with his new wife (who he married less than a yr after my grandmas death) and when I'm crying for her I look in the sky and ask myself "If there's a god, why did he let this happen? why did he have to let someone so loving and caring go without even letting us say goodbye...We wrote a little something in the paper and this is what it said "We didn't have the chance to say goodbye, we'll miss you so and tears we'll cry but memories of you we'll treasure forever in our hearts, goodnight god bless, love you...When ever I read that it makes me cry and I know my life will never be the same again =[."
--Georgie, 11
"This animal I have not lost yet but when he dies this is what will happen ( I am Annie, 10 talking about my dead dog) when my sweet sweet dwarf rabbit Bunnicula dies I will have a knot in my throat for about a year that is what happened when my dog died. (I have a knot in my throat just thinking about losing another pet my family loves animals they grow happy then die of old age this is the number of pets we had that died, 36, my mom told me) and I will most likely cry for a week straight and if my friends ever talk about pets I would tear up remembering him. (That is what happened about my dog) it is so hard because you get so close to them and love them then they die."
--Dog, 10
"My uncle had died and he brought jokes, happiness to our family."
--Anonymous
"I lost my cousin a little over a year ago. She died in a car accident. The roads were icy and she wrecked into a bridge. I thought for sure she would live 'cause when my mom told me she said she had 2 collapsed lungs 2 broken legs and broken ribs and the first thing I thought was that's not as bad as it could be and that she would be ok. Then the news came. She could be bleeding in her head and could be brain dead. First thought was if she dies I will too. Then they told us she was 99% brain dead and if she survived there was no help for her. So they pulled the plug. Turned the life support off. Killing her. I still don't understand why it had to happen. She truly was the best person I knew. She loved everyone and was never negative. She meant a lot to my whole town. At her funeral the church was made to hold 100-200 and there were about 500 people there telling you how much she was loved. But the one thing I remember the most is the last time I saw her. It was her birthday December 30, 2006 14 days before she died. I still remember that she hugged everyone but me. I mean I talked to her and everything but I didn't get to hug her. And that is the only memory that sticks in my head to this day of her. The worst memory of all I remember. It stinks a lot but I know she isn't suffering but I don't believe you could ever give me a reason to believe that this had to happen. I mean I told my little cousin that maybe God thought we needed a guardian angel to look over us and she would be perfect for the job but I cant convince myself of that."
--Steph
"My Grammy died about 2 days after she left my house. She got sick on the train and had to be taken to the hospital. Then...She died. So I know what it's like. I remember the fun games and the music I played on my violin. I'm over it now."
--Chloe, 10
"Yes I lost my bff on April13,07 it was the worst day ever. I remember that she was always making people laugh."
--Adrienne, 13
"My grandma and grampa both died right in front of my eyes =\."
--Dustin, 12
"My grandpa died about 4 years ago. I cried. It helped. ( sorry about my grammar. )."
--Sam, 12
"When I was 9 my great gran was in hospital 4 2 wks then died a month after that my uncle died then my little cousin died all in a year! It was just b4 my 10 bday!"
--Lw, 12
"My grandma. She used to be so important to my mom."
--Padia, 10
"My pet, Tanner, has to be put to sleep. He has kidney stones. I love him so much, I don't know how I am going to deal with accepting he will be gone...Forever. We are going to bury him in our back yard. I guess I will just have to accept he is going to be gone."
--Paige, 10
"I'm sorry Shobana but that's mean you shouldn't talk about your dad like that! He loved you and still does so you should love him to! God bless you guys I'm sooooo sorry your families and friends died."
--Notworthaname, 9
"My uncle killed himself, I do not wanna talk about it."
--Lexi, 9
"I have a friend whose aunt died just recently. She's been wearing black all week. She's not becoming a goth. It's just her way of grieving. Her mother isn't letting her go to her funeral, which is wrong because she really wanted to go. She feels that she is being blamed for her mom's problems, and ever since her aunt died, she feels that her family life is suffering. It's really sad. I hate when people die. I just try to listen to her and try not to upset her or make her sad. It's the least I can do to help her because she's a great friend. I wish her and her family the best."
--Anonymous
"I don't know if I posted this, but on 9/11/05 my cousin died (that's right. The 9/11 memorial day) and the worse part (ok, there are 2) is that A. I saw him the night before he died, and B. He died the day after my 2-year-old sister was born. And I miss him. Also, my cat Mr. Hat died not around then, but, I believe, in that year, and I miss them both so much : ( : ( / (."
--Kitten, 11
"My bf broke my heart."
--Mikki, 13
"Last year, my bf died in a tragic car accident. I still cry over it. I think the part I remember most about him was his laugh. Every time he'd laugh, he'd always make me happy. I also loved the way he'd try and make me cheer up. He'd always go and buy a bag of Cheetos and we'd sit in my room and watch a movie together. It was so nice. I now have a new boyfriend, but I'll never forget David. He was such a nice guy and a good one..."
--Danni
"My grandpa died a couple of years ago. He had had quite a few strokes, and by the time I was old enough to remember him, he didn't speak much. I still miss him though. Whenever we went to my Grama's house, we would visit him at the nursing home. I didn't cry much when he died, but I am crying now. I miss him."
--Amber, 10
"I'm crying just from reading all of these posts! You have my condolences."
--Julie, 10
"Yes, I've experienced grief. But not as bad as my brothers! My brothers' grandpa died. We were going to Indiana for my brother Patrick's wedding. When we got to the hotel, we got a call from them. Their grandfather lived in Florida, and they were driving to the wedding. Their grandfather (who was not related 2 me) said he couldn't make it, because he wasn't feeling good. On the way back, he died. I felt so bad for them because it was one day before David's (My other brother's) birthday, and 3 days before Patrick's wedding! As for me, my Aunt died unknowingly. She had ADD and had it for about 2 years. My uncle and my cousin were out for dinner. They found her laying in the middle of the couch. It was sad, and I was also worried, because my dad went to Iraq, so I was afraid that he would die. But he is ok. :)."
--Hanna-ban, 10
"A few months ago my friend died. It still hurts a lot and nobody understands..."
--Heather, 13
"Rest in Peace, Buddy Bird. I love you, and so does Gram and Grampop."
--Ladybug, 10
"My dad just passed away suddenly from bleeding in the brain after surgery. I remember just after surgery he was fine, talking making jokes with the nurses, anything he could do to make us feel that everything would be ok...The next thing I know he was on life support and we had to make the decide to take him off. That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I didn't want to let him go but I couldn't see him connected to all those machines. I can't deal with it."
--VALERIE, 37
"Our grandma died on Saturday November 3rd. My dad called before 9:00 in the morning and then we went to the funeral and I saw my uncle Dave my cousin Rachel and my uncle Brian and my dad and after the funeral me, Lance and mom went to Frankenmuth too."
--Shaylane
"My father's death has impressed me very much. I can still remember the incident! After two month we went to Germany and we got a new father! He is soo friendly and better then my x-father."
--Shobana, 11
"I lost my grandfather about 5 years ago it was a really sad time because he was one of my best friends and it was the day before my little brother was born."
--Tori, 9
"My baby brother died before I was even born. He only had half of his heart the other half did not grow. The doctors could not save him so he turned blue and died. I never got to see him or kiss him."
--Jordan, 10
"My grandfather died about a year ago, and I felt like about half of me was missing. I never really talked to him, and I don't really know why. But now I feel really guilty. If god is up there and everyone says he saves people, then why didn't he save my grandfather, and all the other people that have passed away? So now whenever I see my grandmother, I cry because she's all alone in the house. I LOVE YOU grandfather. --Shermaine."
--Shermaine C
"My cousin just died last year and it was on Friday the thirteenth an I miss him so much. And I never even once told him I loved him, and I rarely hugged him. And I do love him but now he's gone and I cant see him even once just to tell him. I just can't get over it and everywhere I go and everything I see just reminds me of him. What can I do?!?!?!?"
--Nikki, 13
"My Aunt died when I was 10, and I couldn't let it go. She died of breast cancer, but by the time the doctors removed that part, it had spread to the rest of the body. I couldn't stop crying, I remember Mum telling me about her death and I didn't talk to anyone for a few days. I loved her so much, and still do."
--Kathryn, 11
"Yes, I have lost someone that I loved deeply. He was a boy that went to my school. He was always picked on, but he always smiled at everyone in the hallways and said hi to all of the teachers. I had a big crush on him, but, as terrible as this sounds I didn't want to be made fun of. I didn't say anything, but day after day, when I heard someone saying something about him, I would find myself sticking up for him. He moved away then. I never saw him again. Then one morning, these people came into our classroom and told us. He had died the night before. It was an unexpected death. We were all horrified. I especially. I didn't want to talk about it to anyone though, so I didn't. That is the worst thing that I could have done. Don't be embarrassed. It's ok to cry. I am sorry that I never told him how I felt. I wish that I would have stuck up for him more. But I can't change the past, only the future. If you love someone, tell them. You never know how long you have. His memory will be alive in me forever..."
--Lilia, 13
"The thing I remember most about my dad is all the fun things we did together before he died. I miss him so much now that he's gone. He died when I was 6 so I fell like I didn't know him that well. When my grandma or my mom starts talking about him I just burst into tears. I can't even bear to look at his picture or I'll cry."
--Bryn, 10
"My Aunt Tori just lost her baby."
--Connie, 12
"Yes my mom died when I was 7. She died of cancer. Her last words were I love You."
--Anonymous
"I experienced the death of my grandfather and my great-grandfather. My grandfather came first. He died because he was taking so many pills, He was having trouble with heart. But I loved my great-grandfather the most. I called him papa. He died of cancer in his heart. I was not there when he died in the hospital. I still feel sad about my loss. I still cry about it sometimes. I sometimes wish he was back."
--Caleb, 10
"My cousin died when she was 8 and I was 7. It was really sad. She was always a happy person and really smart. I sometimes think she's still alive and wish she wasn't dead..."
--Callie, 12
"When my cat died, I thought he left because he hated us. I found out that he was as old as a cat could get. He's buried outside my window. It makes me think he's alive."
--Kristen, 10
"When I was nine I met my boyfriends grandpa. He made us hot chocolate and hugged me for no reason! The next year, he died. Right before Christmas. I cried all day. He wasn't JUST my boyfriends grandpa, he was my grandpa."
--Mallory, 10
"My grandfather died! I miss him so much. I remember how we used to go to the park and play: (."
--Kayla, 10
"I remember nothing about her."
--Anonymous
"My grandfather died before I was even born. I never met him..."
--Tammy, 12
"My grandfather died about a year ago, and I felt like about half of me was missing. I never really talked to him, and I don't really know why. But now I feel really guilty. If god is up there and everyone says he saves people, then why didn't he save my grandfather, and all the other people that have passed away? So now whenever I see my grandmother, I cry because she's all alone in the house. I LOVE YOU CLARENCE! FROM YOUR LITTLE WALRUS, TESS!"
--Tess, 12
"Hi my name is BJ. My dad died when I was 5. I was so sad. He died of his heart I didn't get to see him or kiss him..."
--BJ, 9
"Yes I have had to deal with death My dads girlfriends cat died I know he wasn't even my family's cat but the first time I met him I put my coat on a chair and he started playing with the little cord that was on the coat have sweet dreams tie. = (."
--Viper
"My grandpa died when I didn't know him well."
--The Dark Lord
"Yes I have, her name was Hannah, one of my best friends. The thing I remember most about her was playing outside at school together. Oh my gosh, I miss her so much..."
--Cassidie, 10
"Dear Addie, Don't feel bad I cried in math and all day because my grandmas dog muffin died on 12/6/o7 I felt terrible love, all-American cheerleader."
--All American cheer l, 11
"Stevi: I'm very sorry. And it's great the way you're dealing with the situation..."
--Nathasha, 12
"I have experienced quite a few deaths but the one that is a sad one is my dog. Jenny, was her name. She had saved me from a bad dog who dragged a child across a park by the head! She listened me she never hurt a fly! I loved that dog I had also been with her my whole life. When I found out that she had two tumors and cancer it broke my heart to know that she needed to get put to sleep. When she got put to sleep I wrote story about a life saving dog and I plan on doing sequels :)."
--Annalyse, 10
"When My best Friend for life's Mother died I wasn't feeling sad but my grandma was very upset! Because she was my grandma's sister it was very sad that my best friend was so depressed I was very upset now ’Äòcause I finally know what it felt like to lose a mother I hope there would be a solution to this I just can't stand it anymore!"
--Sunny, 10
"It's really hard especially when I get yelled at. Thanks for listening."
--Abigail, 9
"When I was only 9 yrs old I went through a lot my mother died I still cant believe it but it's true I love my mother and I miss her so very much!"
--Charlisa, 10
"When I was less than a year old, my Uncle Gavin died, at only age 27. Still, 10 years later, even though they never saw them, my younger siblings, Niall, age 8, and Siobhan, age 6, still think about him. Then, tragically, two years later, my gross-oma, a. K. A., my dad's grandma dies."
--Niamh, 10
"I lost my best friend when I was in the 5th grade. My principal told me and it really was the saddest thing ever. I remember her having an asthma attack on the playground. That had to be the hardest thing watching her suffer. I tried to help her. A few months later her mom died too it was very hard on me but worse on her dad."
--Courtney
"This is about my Aunt Gloria. She was sleepin' in her bed with her daughter, and when her daughter woke up, her mom died!"
--William, 9
"I lost both of my parents a month apart. My dad from cancer and my mom was unknown. She was on the way to pick us up from school and they found her by her car. It was even harder on my little brother. We had no nearby relatives so a teacher from my school (I was in the 7th grade and my brother was in 4th grade) said her little sister had no children and no husband and had always wanted children but not babies. I now live with her and call her aunt Sadie. My brother is doing great and I know my parents are in a better place. I feel like they are always watching over me. I know there are other kids out there who have lost both parents but maybe even at the same time. I know it can be hard sometime but you have to keep going and remember those who are close to you even though they aren't right next to you. I feel your pain. Lots a luv!"
--Alicia
"It's January the fifth, and I just heard that my sister's boyfriend died today. We took her back home yesterday, and then today her boyfriend died. I feel really sad because when ever she was talking to him on the phone I got jealous, because she ALWAYS used to talk to him on the phone, so I picked up the other phone and said "I hate you, my sister loves you more than she loves me...I wish you would die!" I feel so bad. I didn't even know him (I only talked to him twice on the phone and saw his picture), and I feel hurt inside and I can't stop crying. I feel like this is all my fault, what do I do? I'm so sad."
--Emily, 11
"My name is BJ and I am so sad because my dad died over his heart but I am ok well bye."
--Bj, 9
"I lost my mom in November to heart disease. She battled this condition for about 2 years, and a third heart attack killed her 10 days after my 19th birthday. I felt like it was my fault because she died and I had thought about committing suicide several times after she passed. However, this wasn't my fault, and I miss her every day. Now I also know suicide is never the answer to a problem, and my friends and family would be devastated if I did that. Anyway, rest in peace and enjoy heaven, Mom."
--Jessica
"Yes I have experienced the death of someone I loved in my family and it was my father Thomas Edward S. The one thing that I remember most about my father was that if he was still alive today he would still love me as much as he would in heaven."
--Willow S, 13
"Yes. He was a good person and he done a lot to help people."
--TJ
"My dog is going soon. I have been in tears ever since my parents broke it to me. I will soon make a memorial to remember her. I truly don't want to go to the vet with her, for the last time and I won't have to..."
--Brian, 12
"My Nana's dog died on thanksgiving 2007. I don't know her dog very well, but I do remember that my Nana's husband's dog was looking all over for her but was unsuccessful. I think she just went to a happy place and one day the other dog will find her."
--Anonymous
"When I was in first grade my friend Devin died in an car accident when their car slipped on black ice, and got smacked by a train. His dad and my dad worked at the fire department together and his dad had to go on the call to find out his wife and 4 out of 5 children were dead. I felt really bad for them. I'll never forger December 5th. He was in my dance class so when we had our recital we dedicated the dance to him, his dad was really sad in the audience."
--Jessica, 12
"Yeah, my grandpa died on my 8th birthday. He said he was gonna get me something that I always wanted. Unfortunately, I only got the present back, and his body."
--Sabbie, 11
"My dad died when I was 8 years old and I never really got to see him and know him that well but I still love him so much sometimes I write things down about how I lost him he died from drugs and maybe aids from when he did drugs but my mom said I should talk to my counselor at school but I can't bc all I will do is burst in to tears again : ( I wish he never left me it's like my hear is torn into little pieces that can never be replaced or fix so what should I do??"
--Deja
"I have experienced the death of a lot of people I loved. The most I remembered is the death of my great-grandfather. I loved him so much, he loved me too. I remembered all the things he gave me. I still have some of his gifts and it helps me to remember him 'cause he died when I was like 6."
--Nathasha, 12
"My grandma's bird died a little bit ago. It may seem weird that I was that sad over a pet that wasn't mine, but believe me, he was really close. And, the saddest thing is that the last time I saw him he did one trick he would never do with me: he nibbled my lip and kissed me. Rest In Peace, Buddy Bird."
--Ladybug, 10
"Yes, in January of this year I lost my dad to an aortic aneurism (basically his heart gave out). I think the most things I can remember about him is that he would always call me turkey and kiddo. He would always spoil me rotten. He wasn't just my dad, he was my best friend. We got in trouble and had fun together. And I will never forget him."
--Stevi
"My grandpa died 12/20/06 and this is the day of his death. It is very bad day for me because I did not get to say good by."
--Ashley
"One of my aunties and one of my uncles put my grandpa in a nursing home. My grandpa hated it and he always begged to go home. He said if no one takes him out after 10 he'll die. Thank the lords that my aunties took him out 'cos you see, he's my only grandpa and he was the one who raised me. My other grandpa had to die 'cos he had so many sickness that the doctors cant do nothing=[."
--Julie, 13
"When I was 7, I was in school and my dad came in and told me to pack up and come with him. I did that, and we drove home in silence. We came to my house, and I was just thinking, "What's going on?" my whole family was in my house, and my mom looked at me and said that my grandpa had died around 1:00, and at that time it was 2:00! She told me that he just died because he had cancer, which surprised me because I didn't even know. About two hours later, my friend Samantha knocked on my door and she was holding a big basket for me. Inside, there was a little stuffed cat, (my favorite animal) and a little tube of chocolate covered pretzels. She said "I'm so sorry your grandpa died" IML, please post this!"
--AmericanCutie, 9
"I did a baby cousin and a grandmother I don't really remember either. I might have had more that died."
--Kammi, 12
"Yeah, my grandpa died when I was little. I don't remember much, but I do have my family's stories and pictures to remember him by..."
--BeachBumm88
"My uncle Chuck did several years ago I steal fell sad and lonely he was lick a father to me I never fell the love and closeness Sense his death. A year before that my grandfather did. I feel lick I never want to love again. But I still feel their presence the iecurg me and help me when others are not."
--Jerianne
"I have three living brothers and one living sister. I also have one deceased brother and one deceased sister. They both died before they were born, so I never got to meet them. They were both born after death. When I think about them I get really sad, but I remember that I will see them again in heaven. My brother was born May 17, 2004, and my sister was born March 6, 2005..."
--Laterose, 11
"My great aunt, who I was dearly close to passed away just one year ago. I miss her so much! I remember that her house always smelled nice. Such as cookies, or something sweet that she would always make for my family and other relatives. She was a very giving person, and I enjoyed being with her a lot. I remember when she taught me how to play piano at the age of six! She also taught me how to knit and such. No words can explain how much I miss her..."
--BusyGirl123
"My mum died when I was 2 yrs old and I can get really upset around Christmas ill start going quite at Christmas dinner then ill run upstairs and lock myself in the bathroom and talking to my step mum doesn't help what should I do."
--Leanne, 11
"Just recently a teacher died at school right in the middle of class and I was really surprised and so was everyone else and I didn't know what to do."
--Brooke, 13
"My mom's ex husband's grandma died and the church was so full that some people had to sit on the floor, then 3 weeks later my father's dad died. Then while I was in Virginia my bff hailie got ran over by a speeding car and died at the hospital and we rushed over to Mississippi. Her last words were, See you in heaven then she died while I was at her bedside. I was in a state of depression for a year then I met a lot of new friends that helped me get over it."
--Mint, 13
"My Grandpa died before my dad even met my mom. My dad said I would like him. He was the nicest guy you can know my dad added. My great grandpa died when I was 9. He was the only (great) grandpa I ever knew, I miss him. My other grandpa died when I was 4 I only got to see him once when I went to Lithuania where he lives. My cat got put to sleep because she was limping and wouldn't eat. Last, my dog got put to sleep last month on Nov 27 2007. She had stomach cancer and would not eat. Last my great aunt has a rare cancer and the doctors are doing everything they can. Hope she will live! May God take care of them all. R. I. P."
--Erika, 10
"Yes I have well my great grandpa passed a few days ago of course he was 95 I was a lucky child to really now my great grandpa it was hard when my dad told me the news and school was the next day my great grandpa had died in the morning but I should have seen it coming he was in a nursing home and could not hear anyone unless you yelled it is hard when you lose someone you love terribly much I love you great grandpa."
--Maleah H., 9
"It makes you feel terrible but you see them again."
--Mandy, 9
"Yes I have experienced death-3 TIMES! It was very upsetting."
--Ruth, 8
"My hamster Squidgy died and I luv him so much so to remember him I made a scrapbook now I feel a bit better."
--Iluvu, 10
"In October 2, o7 my uncle died 'cause his heart gave out. I'm still sad, I don't wanna talk about it. I got a beautiful bracelet this year from him, and I'll never get to thank him."
--Sarah, 9
"Yes, my father, my grandfather, great-grandfather, and my mom's friend Mark. I remember my father picking me up and putting me on his shoulders. So many people remember him, I was only 7 going to turn 8 that year. I was so sad when he died. Ever since he died I have felt this present, and I have had many dreams about my father since he died he was so special to me. My father died in an explosion at his grandfather's house. Everyone but him lived. When my grandfather died I wasn't as sad because I know he was in a lot of pain and missed my father very much. I remember being spoiled rotten by him. He died in a hospital of pneumonia. My great-grandfather I didn't really know him partly because he wasn't my great-grandfather at all he was just my grandmother's step-father. My mom's friend Mark was a very kind man who loved his wife very much. He was his wife's high school sweetheart and was still in love with her. He died of a heart attack. I have attended many other funerals, how many funerals I have attended most people shouldn't attend that many 'til maybe even their early 50's. My Father (died in 2003) My Grandfather (died in 2003) My Great-Grandfather (died in 2007-I think) Mark (died in 2007)."
--Alanna, 12
"Yeah & I got over it."
--Meredith, 11
"Yes. My mom's cousin. Which is my 2nd cousin I think? Well, anyway my mom's cousin died in a car accident. He was only 22 and about to get married in a half of a year. Some drunk driver killed him and is now in jail for it. My mom was really sad for about a month, and I was too even though I didn't know him that well. But I do remember that he had this really cool house and I would go over there with my sibs sometimes when my parents went out or something. He was really nice and always bought treats for us when he knew that we were coming over. I really miss him even though I didn't really know him all that well..."
--Ashlie<3, 12
"When I was four (or five) my grandpa died. It was four days until my birthday! And when I was six, my great great aunt died. And last year (or so) my great aunt Samella died. And I never even met her!"
--Kerra, 8
"This is a little personal, but my cousin committed suicide when I was 9, only because he got mad. We hoped he'd get better, but there wasn't enough blood in him that he could live. What I remember the most about him was that, he always kissed every little kid's cheek, whenever he saw them. It's not very easy going through that, but now every year in the Summer, we go visit his grave. I miss him!"
--Secret, 10
"Their laugh, smile, and how they'll tell us stories about life and how you should always be happy about what you have because it can be worse. She used to say be happy!"
--Guidalia~GG, 13
"I've dealt with one of my best friends deaths. She and I and the whole 7th grade dealt with it. The girl's mom was very nice, but now she's in a better place. It's hard to live, it's easy to die or lose a loved one."
--Casey, 12
"Yes, I have experienced the death of someone I loved. I remember how last year the mom (dead one) used to bring her daughter food from the store every day for her daughter. That girl (mom) was very nice and didn't deserve to die. Everyone has to die but she was so helpful. I guess that God used her then when He was done with her, he told her to come on home."
--Monkey, 13
"My friend was killed in a car crash this summer, after I very narrowly escaped it. My uncle almost dies recently and I just wish it was all over. I hate watching this happen, and not being able to do anything..."
--Justme, 12
"I lost my favorite dog Max. He was only 02 when he died."
--ShelleyC, 8
"I loved Amber in primary school. Then she left, and I forgot. But now I will never forget her, no way, no how. She's a lil angel now and she will be with us foreva. Xxxxxxxxxx love yew Amber."
--Beckii, 13
"Collette......My mom is 29."
--Grace, 8
"When I was one month old, my grandpa died from a heart attack. I barely knew him, but I still wish I could've gotten to know him. When I was seven, my mom's friend's husband died of liver failure. It doesn't sound like I'd be very close to him, but I was. I remember the last time I saw him, he looked so sick, and the last thing he said to me was "Can I have back my fuzzy yet?" (Long story. It was a joke we shared. I wish more then anything that I could hear him say that one more time). When I was nine, my older sister (age 24 at the time) died on August 24, 2003. I don't like to talk about that. The same year, my pet goat died the day after Christmas (-sarcasm- what a great Christmas present. -/sarcasm-). And then, on August 17, 2007 (on my friend Brett's b-day), my grandma Bonnie died. I think she's the one I've cried the most for, because I knew her the best. But all of these people (and animal) that died, I loved them all SO MUCH."
--Chantel, 13
"This may sound weird, but my babysitter's sister died in a motorcycle crash."
--Nicholas, 8
"My mom died when I wuz 2. It's sad because I can't talk to my dad about puberty. I rely on school and media."
--Kittypower, 13
"I had a neighbor. We were soo close. She was kinda like my auntie. One night she and her friend went to visit art ( aunties husband) in the hospital. They were pulling around the corner when a flash freeze happened. They slid right in front of a bus. Janise (auntie) screamed. The bus ran into Janise's side and killed her. I woke up to a sunny day. My mom was beside me. She told me the story. I cried so hard. I was around 9. My grandma died 2 years before and I felt like I was causing their deaths...I am heart broken. : (."
--Celeste, 11
"Well it was my grandfather who died. He was a loving and caring person. He was maybe about 87 when he died. He had his own farm and loved to play music and make music with his guitar. Sometimes he just sat in the little shed he had and sang songs to my grandmother. To tell the truth I did something that I wasn't supposed to do. I talked back to him. But then a few days later he told me stories about how someone stole money from his wallet. It was funny and interesting at the same time. But I had to go back to Canada since school was starting in September, so I left and said bye to my cousins and of course my grandma and grandpa. 5 months passed and I was in grade 4. On a Saturday morning I woke up from my mom's whining. I ask her what's wrong and she said my grandfather died because he got hit by a car. I was surprised and angry and sad at the same time. I then thought of him just sitting in his shed singing songs while the rain was pouring down from the sky. I then got tears rolling down my eyes. Then I just burst out with oceans of tears. I never forgot that day. And at least I knew he was in a better place that he was dreaming of for his whole entire life: HEAVEN...GOD PLEASE TAKE CARE OF HIM."
--Sarah, 10
"My a Aunt Ivy died. She believed in God. How and what happened?"
--Bev, 8
"My cousin had a girlfriend who had a baby who died December 9. I haven't even met her. I hardly get to see the family. They live 4 hours away. The family had taken a couple pictures of them."
--Kaylee
"I loved my hamster until my brother stole it. I wish he didn't do that. It made me very angry. But I try to remember the good times. Even though I can never see him again, except when I walk into my brothers room, I'll always cherish him."
--Zach
"My friend's cousin Morgan Alexis Brown died at age 14 on October 26, 2007. This post might be considered "Scary" for some people so only read this if you think you should. It all started on a Tuesday evening in the beginning of September when Morgan caught her boyfriend with another girl. A little whiles later her father lost his job. During all this Morgan was under the abuse of drugs. Things got worse. Morgan's mother died one day when she was at school. Her father was too poor and too sad that he was unable to take care of Morgan. Morgan was then brought to foster care about three hours away from where me and my friend live. There she was treated unfairly and punished for things she didn't do. She was only fed supper and sometimes lunch. How did she afford drugs? sadly she stole money from her father. The last money her father had. With all the guilt and pain she felt, she took an overdoes on the drug. She sadly died that cold Friday night. May you rest in peace Morgan Alexis. We miss you. ^j^^j^^j^^j^."
--Xx_I-make-it-rain_xX, 12
"My baby sister Gloria died in September. I have lost a brother and a sister in the past two years. For everybody who has lost a special person: let Jesus hold you through your difficult time."
--Failey, 12
"Grace...How old is ur mom?"
--Colette
"My dog died and he was the best. I would hug him when I was scared. It happened November 20 2007."
--Lynn, 10
"I had a dream that I was in the hospital, and I was in this room and I could not get out. And everyone was looking at me and I could not figure it out why. And I saw people that have gone away and I was trying to tell them I'm here, but no answer."
--Abbigail
"Yes because this guinea pig died before I was born. And mom always says he was really affectionate, but I never got to experience it myself! His name was Mr. Whiskers."
--Melannie
"Hey ppl I like just talking. My grandmother just died. She was 83 : (. I been rely sad : (. She died of a massive heart attack. Pastor Sandy was there and she made me feel a lot better : ). But I am still dealing with it. it makes me cry. So plz pry 4 her and. Me."
--Kara, 10
"My Grampa died when my mom was 14. I wish I could have met him, because my mama says I'd like him. She said he had a lot of humor. If I had 1 wish, it would be he was alive. That's '’Äòcause my mom cried in the cemetery the way you might cry when you're embarrassed or made fun of. He died on July 3 1993. My mom said she did NOT have a happy 4th of July."
--Grace, 8
"My brother died of some sickness and he was only 7."
--Anon
"This is to all you kids out there that have experienced sudden death. If you are angry or upset LET IT OUT! If you don't it will stay bottled up inside and you will feel even worse. And if a friend dies talk to your teacher or classmates about it and remember that your loved 1s are happy. P.S. always remember the chain of angels! ^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j^j."
--Americangirlover, 9
"I know what it feels like when someone dies in your family! Just about 1 year ago my great grandma died. And my cat ran away, and she is probably died. So I know what it feels like. See you later."
--Anonymous
"My friend Jezz (short for Jezzrell) died on Oct 19. We had a fall carnival at school. Jezz was supposed to be at the fall carnival but she wasn't there! She's in a wheelchair but the next day me and my class came out from the computer lab, a couple of Jezz's friends were crying, I asked Mrs. Wanser "What happened?" Mrs. Wanser said "I'll tell you when we get back to class." so when we got back to class Mrs. Wanser said "Jezz died." I burst out crying. So every time I talk about Jezz I cry. I miss you Jezz!"
--McKenzie, 9
"My grandma died just 9 months ago and she died of cervical cancer. And she was very very sick. And the last few weeks of her life she was sitting in my grandpa's chair. She died Monday, February 12, 2007. I was in school and apparently my sister and my cousin Jennifer were getting stuff for my cousin Jennifer to sleep over and my mommy and my grandpa were at my grandpa's house. And my aunt was pregnant at the time so she was at home and my little cousin Jake was at daycare, and my uncle was at work, and my brother was at work. And so was my daddy and the nurse that came to the house to monitor my grandma had just gave her a bath and a little while later she passed away. And a preacher was there when she died so my mom called my aunt, my cousin, my sister, my dad, and my uncle and brother and when she called my daddy she said "Alan, please go pick up Brianna. Mom died and I don’Äôt wanna leave Dad." So I was actually surprised my dad came to pick me up. And when I got home everyone was sitting on the porch and I was thinking in my head "Why is everyone here?" And my mom sat me down and said grandma had died, and I started to just break out in tears because she didn't want me to walk in the house and wonder where grandma was. So my mom told me I can go to my friend Samantha’Äôs house to play, and when I got there Samantha was in a black dress and she said "I'm sorry about your grandma." And she gave me a bag and it had makeup and a lot of pretty stuff. And we hung out and then walked to my friend Breanna's house who lives right across the street from me. And she gave me a card and a stuffed dog and we hung out till pretty much nighttime. And when they went home I just went on about my business. And that is the day my grandma died. And now I am in middle school and I’Äôm just trying to survive that."
--Brianna, 12
"Hey everyone I just want to say have a safe and happy holidays with your families and remember that it you lost someone and this is your first holiday without them remember they are always with you forever and ever!! I LOVE ALL SO MUCH!!"
--Shorty
"My Peepaw died 2 days before my birthday. I was really sad he wasn’Äôt there for my 11th birthday. I really loved him and he helped my family and things."
--K@+3! Yn, 13
"My rabbit Taloola died on the 10th of November 07. I miss her so much. My mum told me to think of all the good times we had but that makes me cry to because I wish I could do them all again. I buried her in my back garden. I remember my dog used to lick her to death. He stopped and looked at her and began to cry. I feel like it was my fault. I forgot about her a lot. I thought she would always be there. "You gave her the best life you could." my mum told me, "And no one could have given her one like that but you." I feel like I could have made it better sometimes. She always ran up to the cage door when someone walked in. I sometimes think she is still there, and say goodnight to her. I miss her so so much."
--Amy, 9
"Hello my name is Hannah. I had a man that died in the hospital. And he went to my church. Bye."
--Hannah
"Mary I miss you and your smile."
--Anonymous
"My friend lost her grandpa. Him and Danny's (my friend) grandma were in a crash. Danny's granddad went into a coma and came out after a year. A couple of months latter he died. : ( ^j^ a shout out to my friend Danille: keep going for it. From your friend Delaney."
--Delaney, 10
"Hi. I had a great grandmother die when I was 5 or 4, I don't know. She was the best and always there. My grandma told me that and I remember her."
--Brynn, 11
"I hate it when people die: ( but it's O. K. I had that problem. Everybody dies when they are old. Like my Uncle Melvin died a few months ago and I do miss him so. I LOVE YOU UNCLE MELVIN!!!!!!!!"
--Nicole, 8
"I'm sad because my nana's cat Jessi died September 30th. She had a bunch of fluid in her lungs. So they decided to put her to sleep. I found out about a week after she died because I was on vacation and they didn't want to ruin it for me. I cried for a loooooooooong time and I still cry a lot. Sometimes I just want to die because I miss her so much. I know she's in a better place. I had my dog Smoky die on my birthday when I was 2 she was sick and my nana's dog died when I was 4 because he was old about 13 years old. I know she's in a better place. I love you and miss you Jessi!"
--Ashlei, 9
"When I was 7, my dad died of cancer. I'm not quiet sure what caused it, but it did that on off thing though. It was there, then went away, then came back again. My dad had 8 surgeries, and none of them worked. My mom told me that he was at the hospital, and that they couldn't take care of him. That he wasn't coming back, EVER. I cried and cried and cried. I'm still not over it. I've lost too much in my life! It makes my life harder. Most of the time I was alive, he had surgery and the cancer became known when I was 3...I hated it sooo much when my mom told me that he died!! I can't take this anymore! It's torture."
--Haley, 13
"I had just turned 10 and we were at the teddy bear toss and around 10:00 a shiver went down my spine. On our way home my uncle called and said my grandma died around 10:00 She had been in a coma for 3 days. Saying goodbye was really hard but we got over it. I still miss her and wonder why she had to leave. I love her."
--Kassie, 11
"When I was little my grandfather died. It happened when I was 7 years old. And I am still sad that he died!!"
--Narda, 12
"When I was 12 I lost my mother to breast and brain cancer. She had fought ever since I was 6 years old. I thought it would happen but it never occurred to me. I was at a summer camp when she passed and it was the day before I was going home to see my parents. I have been really depressed and it's been hard to bear. I miss her dearly. Rest In Peace Elfi (mom)."
--Sadye
"I have experienced death before. My great aunt died at the age of 98. That was a week or so before her sister's birthday. When her sister died she was 102 1/2! When my mom called me to tell me. We were at a parking lot and I started to cry. I remember a lot of things about both of my aunts. My favorite thing about my 98-year-old aunt was that she painted. And my other one was very kind and took care of her sister. I miss both of them a lot!!! : (."
--Delaney, 10
"Well all my grandparents died when I was really young. I think I was five when the last one died, and the first one died before I was born. I feel really sad because I never got to know them, while my other cousins got to know them really well. Man I miss them!"
--Emily, 13
"My grandma died and now I don't have someone to call on the phone when I'm bored or when I need advice!"
--Kelsey, 12
"My grandmother died yesterday and she was the most important person in my life. I'm having the hardest time ever. I am praying but God seems to be just watching, though I have faith in him. I pray for you all too, that we may get through this together. It's not about us, it's about God getting the glory out of our lives. I love you all."
--Tina
"My grandmother died when I was 7 and she basically was my best friend, but no one really paid any attention to her because she was deaf and blind. But the up-side is that she had a hearing aid so she could hear me, but not well. She couldn't see me but she knew my voice. It was like an answering machine how she would repeat me. When she died it was like losing a friend more than a grandma."
--Delila C, 13
"Dear IML; this does not have to do with this topic but I bet the reason you have not yet posted my advice columns is because I don't put my age. My age is my business but if you need me to I can. Just let me know ok?"
--Shorty
"My nana died a few weeks ago. I'm very sad. I even start to cry when we sing sad songs. Xxx I love u nana. RIP xxxxxxxxxxx."
--Sarah, 11
"A teacher @ my school has a daughter named Sadie. She has epilepsy and I am afraid she will die. P. S I'm Simone."
--Sk8rgal_788
"I am 12 years old and I had a puppy for three days and it seemed to me that the puppy choked herself. I am so sad and angry because I am saying if I was at home the puppy would not have killed itself. I am so SAD. My mom got me another puppy but it is not the same. I feel like I cannot love it the way I did the other. Can someone please tell me what to do or what I can do to help the sadness in my heart and being?"
--Julian, 12
"It was a few days after Christmas, and I was at a party. When my mom came to pick me up, she looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, "Bingo just died." Bingo was my hamster's name. I cried for the rest of the night. Now, I sleep with his favorite toy, a little chew bear toy. I'll never forget you, Bingo."
--Caitlin, 9
"Well my most miss memory is my father because, well I really didn't get to know him but I want to, because well, all the great things my family get to tell me about him in my home town Enfield, NC. But mostly what hurts me inside the most is why he deceased at such a way-too young age. I really miss him a lot. I can't believe he passed on that day September 30, 2004. It's really hard to say what happened because it's indescribable, but really I don't know how it happened. But all I know is that he was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I still miss my dad, though. It's really hard to move on in life without a dad with you. My step-dad says he's here for me, though. I'm glad I have a step dad by my side..."
--Kiante
’ÄúMy dad and mom died when I was 2 and from then on I’Äôm a foster child. No one has yet adopted me because I’Äôm deaf and my legs are disabled.’Äù
--Veronica, 13
’ÄúHey everyone. I just wanted to say that I am sorry for all your losses. I know it's hard, but just think: they are no longer hurting. If you need help I can help you!’Äù
--Shorty
’ÄúU do the J with wings by pressing shift and 6 at the same time, the pressing a lowercase j, then pressing shift and 6 at the same time. It should look somewhat like this ^j^. Thanks for listening. :) :) :) :).’Äù
--Jane Anne, 12
"It was the last day of school and I was watching the third grade go down the hallway because they where going to a different school. When it was over, my mom picked me up. She was talking on the phone and looked sad. We got in the car and she said "Dave died."[Dave was my dog's name. ]I was so sad. I loved him so much. I've never got over it. I love you Dave."
--Annie, 8
"I'm really sad. My nanna's cat had to be put to sleep on September 30th. They didn't tell me about it until I came back from Florida. I've been crying a lot ever since I found out."
--Ashlei, 9
"It's hard on you when someone dies in your family. Like for instance, my grandmother died and it was hard getting through it. But finally I got through it."
--Li25, 8
"I had a grandpa that died. Here's my story. He was in World War II. He had to have surgery on his stomach because he was bleeding. At least he lived a long time to see me become a big girl. I was three when that happened, and four in a half when he died. I went to his funeral. I cried for week, even at the funeral. I was so sad. I even cry now sometimes. I will never forget him. He was a special man."
--Abby, 9
"My best friend, my dog, Murphy had to be put down yesterday. My heart aches and I cry a lot. But, I had the best eight years of my life with him and nothing can take that away from me. I have a blanket with his picture on it and I hug it all the time. It makes me feel close to him. It's ok to cry."
--Lauren
"Though I had found my Granddad's death horrible, then another one had struck: Kasey R's Grandpa, Chief had died from battling lung cancer. I always had known he was a very wonderful and colorful neighbor and pal to my parents and my retired sitter, Holly. It was so horrible. I felt Kasey and Holly who were both needing my comfort because both of them were bawling terribly like a hand of pain suddenly grabbed at my own girl pal's heart and shredded it for hours. Holly was so unhappy I thought it would flood so badly that she would not get over it. I would hate to lose Holly. Kasey also means a lot to me. What happens when your heart gets shredded?"
--Joseph
"Please post this IML. My Babysitter's 17 yr old cousin died a few days ago. She is way depressed. Pleez help me on trying 2 make her less depressed. P. S. : These ^j^ are kinda cool! ^j^ ^j^ ^J^J^J^J^J^J^J^."
--Cindy Anne, 10
"TT__TT I miss my cupcake, Blue Skies!! He was the only parakeet/bestest friend I've ever had!! The only thing I kept was a picture of his favorite cartoon sci-fi character. So now, every time I watch that really sad, emotional episode from "South Park", I would cry because, he too, slowly died of sickness...TT__TT."
--Peaches, 12
"The first time I had started grade school was in 1998 in April on that day my granddad died I was so close to him as a sidekick. When my favorite cousin Sarah heard about it she and Angela broke down and wept The Fischer girls wept for comfort from Sarah it ripped at her heart and mine too. Their loss is so much more tragic Sarah was in my arms later. I never had so much sadness in my life..."
--Joseph
"My grandfather died when I was 2 it is really sad."
--Ally, 9
"One night I was watching a show with a whole bunch of doctors and a lot of people were dying. It got me thinking about my father who died when I was one year old. I started wondering what my life would be like if he was alive. I started crying and crying. I went up to my room when my mother and step dad came in. She asked me what was wrong and I told her I was thinking about my father. My step father said nervously "I guess I should leave now." My mother told him to stay. We talked and I finally realized that he was dead and that I would never really know him. It was the saddest night of my life."
--Ryant, 13
"My dog Eddie died. I'm really sad."
--Olivia
"I remember when I was 7 my uncle died when he was pushed in to a river and drowned. I was with him when he died, I saw him die. Whenever I see a picture of him in my scrapbook, I just burst into tears. He was the best uncle ever. Writing this makes me want to cry."
--Hala, 11
"I just recently lost my grandma in April. She was walking her poodle, when all of a sudden, she felt sick and her heart hurt. I had to be taken out of school because my mom didnt know if she would be back. When she got to the hospital, they didnt accept her. She had to go to another one. They ran a LOT of tests on her. They said that during the night, they would fly her to another hospital because they dont do heart surgery there. The next day, we visited her. They were just going to start heart surgery when my grandma told me "Dont worry Emily, I wont die." When they started, they almost lost her. After the surgery, they told us what she had. She had some scars from recent heart attacks. They told us that she had a heart attack when she barely had gotten to the hospital. The surgery had gone a success. They were moving her to the recovery room. Everyone was thrilled that she had lived. A few days passed. She was getting better. Then one day, she had just taken a bath (I was with her) when she was walking out with her walker, the nurse was there helping her, when she told us that she couldnt move her leg. Then she fell down and was unconscious. Then, the nurses told us to go to the waiting room. When we were there, we heard a lot of talking on the speaker saying "Code red on blablabla" we were scared. It wasnt till about 10 minutes later till they told us what happened. They started from the beginning until my aunt stepped in and asked the doctor "So are you saying she is dead?" The doctor slowly replied, "Yes." My family started crying. Then, we went into the room where she had remained. She had a tube down her throat and she was wearing a big bandage around her head. We were in there for about one hour or two. After that, I stayed at home for the week because I couldnt stop crying. When I went back to school, I had to see the counselor because my mom thought that Id been acting different and being sad and not replying when told about it. I miss my grandma a LOT."
--Emily, 10
"My dad's cousin died in a car accident and he was my 2nd cousin. It was so hard even through we have not seen him and his family in forever. He had 4 kids and was a coach at Snook High School. Even through I have never seen him I will miss him 4 EVER AND EVER!!!!"."
--Shorty
"I still hate March 17th. ) :."
--Taylor, 10
"I MISS NANA A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even my words are blue. : (."
--Emily, 10
"My daddy died when I was two years old, from cancer. He died around my birthday and my mom and his anniversary. I didnt know him that well, but I miss him terribly."
--Natalie, 12
"I remember how cute and hyper my dog was!! My dog was black and white. He was just about 9 months old. I remember one time we took him to the beach and he got really scared of the fireworks. I love u Boston!!"
--Bobbie, 13
"My best friends old best friend died in kindergarten. : ( Im now her best friend. I feel like a replacement."
--Molly, 12
"Recently one of my mom's friends named Lynn died in Maryland. She was shot and died after that. When my mom told me, I cried at home and in school. I really miss her. I will love her forever."
--Ashli, 10
"When my stepdad died I was really sad. People I didn't really know come up said, "I’Äôm sorry, "And gave me hugs and kisses. It was really weird not knowing weather to laugh or cry. Sometimes I went to the bathroom to cry a lot and people asked if I was ok and I said I was fine and hurried on my way. I know it was tough to go though death when it happens so fast but you will get over it in a long time."
--Vicki, 13
"I lost my BFFL, KiKi. She died from leukemia...= (."
--Vanya, 9
"I was told I may have cancer of the lungs which would give me 2 years bad or 5 years good. I go from relentless uncontrollable anger to being sad as sad has never been. People around me cant stand to be around me anymore. What do I do?"
--Me
"I have lost a great grandmother before (sniff) and I barely knew her. And her name was Brownie H. She was the mother of my granddad, whose name is Ronald Eugene E. And just a few months ago his dad died. Well I wish I had maybe all my life with them. If you want to know two things I remember of her- 1: her last words I remember was "When I get better I’Äôll come to your house." Sniff. 2: when she was in the hospital I sang a song called Some Glad Morning and she opened her eyes. It is so, so sad when you lose something. My grandfather is so, so upset. So are my uncles and mom. And that is what I have to say, and to remember. Thank you for listening, and I am sorry for your loss."
--Sarah
"When I was three, I had a lot of fun with my grandpa Rick. He was fun. He went on walks with me and everything. I was sleeping at 4 am. I was woken up because grandpa had died. To grandpa: I love you."
--Meghan, 10
’ÄúMy mom was from Thailand. She had a father who was Chinese. My mom loved him so much but he passed away. My mom was so sad that she went back to Thailand to help her mother who didn't know he died. They had been together for about 60 years! I was so sad. I cried day in and day out. Then, I finally realized what my mom went through. Now I always think to myself: ’ÄúDon't let sadness and depression get the best of you. Believe that HE is in heaven.’Äù.’Äù
--Rebecca, 11
’ÄúMy great grandmother died in 2004. I was 6. I miss her and I cried myself sick at her funeral. And her husband Ray, died in 1995. I’Äôm glad their dead ’Äòcuz they can be together. Well grandpa was in world war two. Got wounded and had a purple heart. But a nimrod named Joe broke in and stole it, my dad hates him and wants to hurt him but my dad is a respectful man so he keeps his anger inside when he is in public by Joe. My grandpa died bcuz he had cancer. I love him very much bcuz I know that he loves me. When he thinks of me he thinks wonderful thoughts. And when I think of them both I think of them on a golden swing covered in roses with them on it. I’Äôm crying right now. There's a knot in my stomach and it is getting tighter and tighter by the moment. All I have to say to them is, I LOVE YOU GRANDMA & GRANDPA I LOVE YOU. I have a picture of her in my room and every night before I go to bed I look at it and say to myself, ’ÄúIf only you were here.’Äù And then I go to bed. Thinking of them. Thanks for reading my letter. Bye.’Äù
--Alexis B., 9
’ÄúBreanna, 9: I’Äôm really sorry about your mom’Äôs death. I haven’Äôt experienced a parent death so I don’Äôt know what it feels like. I hope this makes you feel better if you read it. Love her and know she's always there. Thanks for reading, bye.’Äù
--Alexis B., 9
’ÄúKerri: I lost my favorite teacher too last year, and it hurts when you lose someone you’Äôre close too. If u want to talk we can.’Äù
--Shorty
’ÄúMy boyfriend died and I feel angry at god, but I shouldn’Äôt.’Äù
--Carolyn, 10
’ÄúLa'necie, what is your last name? Is it Ansley? I might know you.’Äù
--Gracie, 9
’ÄúI haven't experienced a death of a living person yet. I HAVE experienced the death of my cat, Guinevere, and my goldfish, Lucas. I don't eat fish anymore in respect of Lucas.’Äù
--Courtney, 11
’ÄúMy uncle died on his motorcycle. When my mom told me I tried not to cry, but it is very hard, mostly if you are in a young age. I heard on the news that most kids who know anyone who died who is very close to them, between 5 percent of those kids are in jail. So can you help me? I don't want to be those kids!!! PLEASE!!!’Äù
--Synthia, 11
"When I see all these people's stories I start to cry. I can't believe the many deaths you guys have experienced. My Mom's step-dad died when I was 10 months old. I never knew him well so it doesn't make me sad. My real grandpa, (my moms biological dad) is coming out to live in Cali with my grandma again! Any way, my baby cousin died before he/she was born. It was my uncle’Äôs first biological child, he has 1 stepson, Ryan, but that is it. I never knew the baby and didn't know it died for a long time. I was little though so I wasn't sad. I have had like 20 pets die. I cried when they all died. Well, got to go."
--Polarbearluvr, 12
"I have a feeling my uncle’Äôs death is coming soon. He is very sick with cancer and is unable to get out of bed without a walker. I want to call him and tell him I love him. But I really don't wanna say good-bye to him...I want him to stay here with me..."
--Jacqueline, 11
"I miss our old Sunday school teacher Ms. Annie. She died of cancer and I still remember her like it was yesterday. She was only in her 60s. March 13, 2007. I hate that date."
--Taylor, 10
"Me and my mother were just applying a ticket to the Philippines. Then when the day came it was time to go to the Philippines. And when we arrived at the Philippines airport my two aunts came to pick us up. Then Aunt Emma was discussing something. Then I saw my mother crying. I said "What happened?" she said what happened. She said that my grandmother was sick in the hospital. Then we went to the hospital. Uncle Savyo drove us there. Then we went to the room 104. Then we saw my grandmother lying down. Then my mother sat beside her crying. Then I slept (morning). I woke up. Mum was still crying. Then Aunt Emma said it was time to go to her home. Then we arrived at her house. Then it was night and time to sleep. Then it was morning. Then when I woke up, every body was wearing black. Even I was wearing black! Then we went to the Manoag church. Then it was time for the prayer. It was a group of people. Then we got to my other aunt’Äôs house. It’Äôs near the church, actually. Then it looked like a party from morning ’Äòtill night. Then I woke. Every body was laughing because of some old guy singing funny to an old lady. Then it was time to bury my grandmother’Äôs dead body. Then it was kind of big. The cemetery looked like where Michael Jackson danced Thriller!"
--Charlene
"My teacher died on Sept. 20 and we found out the next day. My other teachers and all my classmates including me cried all day. She was the best teacher I have ever had. She made everything fun because she remembered what it's like to not understand something."
--Kerri, 11
’ÄúMy grandma. I miss her so much. Whenever I would go to visit her, she'd always let me help her in the kitchen when she cooked. She died in 1998.’Äù
--Maggie
’ÄúIt has been 2 years since I lost her. Her name was Jorgey. She passed away during the night. The next day we got a new one at the animal shelter. He was a boy. He used to be an alley cat. And then we got one more named Oscer. We got him in July. My grandmother’Äôs cat hates him. He moved inside in January.’Äù
--Sorena, 12
"My best friend Kaylee died a few month